body peace, where are you?
May 13, 2010 § 27 Comments
Hi beautiful bloggies. You each brighten up my day with the comments I get! Thank you for sharing your opinions!
Yesterday was such an interesting ride. After jumping on the scale on Tuesday (strike one) and sneaking a peek at my new number (about 3 pounds up from March) I’ve been extremely aware of one thing…my body. I long to be comfortable in my own skin. I’m still learning to accept what I’ve been given.
Yesterday morning my mom took me to a nearby studio to get a massage. I felt relaxed and had a wonderful experience (how could I not?!?) but was hyper aware of every inch of my body. There is something vulnerable about chilling in a waiting room in just a robe and sandals. 😉
I brought a book to read and drank a few cups of Mighty Leaf’s Green Tropical tea
Last night I went out with friends for dinner and a baseball game. We stopped by a local steak house for a quick bite to eat. Imagine a picture of a big plate of tortilla chips and cheesy spinach dip.
Oooh, aaaah, yum!
I ate about 1/3 of the plate of chips and finished all of the side dip. My friends also got snacky meals (mostly chicken wings) before we went to the stadium.
Each time our waiter came by to check on the table he directed less than flattering comments towards me.
“Wow, you really went to town on those!”
“You licked that plate clean, didn’t you?” (Yes, I used all of the dip. Sue me. But 2/3 of the chips were leftover!)
One of my girl friends told the waiter she was done while a few chicken tenders were still on her plate.
He responded with, “You don’t want the rest of those? Oh, it’s ok! She (meaning me) has eaten enough for the whole table!”
I smiled and held my tongue like a “good girl”. But his comments really hurt me. I doubt he understands the discomfort I felt being put on the spot like that. Remarks about how much or how little I’ve consumed embarrass me and make me feel self-conscious. Needless to say, I was ready to book it.
By seven p.m. we headed over the Pelican’s stadium for the game. I had such a nice time kicking back with people who love me! Note the Flyers tent sweatshirt I was appropriately repping for the evening 😉 It got cold after a few hours!
Yesterday was a great reminder of how sensitive I am to outsider opinions. In reality, all that should matter is my OWN. 😀
How do you handle less than flattering remarks?
Do you ever have unhappy body days? How do you cope?